Cancer

Cancer is so cruel. It gives very few (if any) symptoms until its too late. It gets better then gets worse. It can be removed yet comes back. The treatment is difficult and debilitating.

I just found out that my husband's cancer has spread again. This just 2 months after finding out that it was getting better. He wanted me to call for the pet scan results so that he didn't find out during his office visit, because he felt that it would be bad news. I didn't think about the fact that this would mean I'll be breaking the news to him. Can't do it tonight, we're going out. Can't do it tomorrow, he's been looking forward to tomorrow's plans for weeks. It will have to be tomorrow night. That will give him a few days to process the information before he goes in for chemo.

If I can just keep my shit together until tomorrow night...